I feel I have to start out with this thought:
I am not defined by what I perceive to be holding me back.
That is booming through my head this morning. I've been doing a huge amount of soul-searching since my trip to India ended early. (I came down with a bacterial infection; which involved severe dehydration, among plenty of other symptoms, which prevented me from being able to stay and travel on the second week.) I have beat myself up for months over this. Slowly it is sinking in that I didn't will myself to get ill. But it is taking a seriously long time to not punish myself for what happened.
A portion of the result from the soul-searching, is that I know, again, I am to write. I fought long and hard with the Lord to overcome many lies from Satan about who I am. Fought to believe I am here for a reason and a purpose. And with the world the way that it is, there can be documentation of our lives. But I have to agree to cooperate with that idea.
I HATE being held back. Every cell in my body resists the injustice! LOL!!!
I am certain, I'm one of millions of people on the planet who don't want someone to restrain them. Especially when you catch glimpses, write it down, and find it years later, of who you think you might be meant to become.
Praise God for pen and paper and a keyboard and screen, and all of the other methods of recording. Take time to review and remember. We need to be confronted with promise and destiny. Things are getting darker and darker. They are...Sometimes I'm in the trenches, feeling things will never be OK. Sometimes, I'm resisting that with all of my might. But it's true. It's one of our realities.
But whatever is surrounding you now-you are not being truly held back. The Earth is the Lord's and fullness thereof. Go back over your recordings, and review. He uses the things we perceive to be our jail cell to create momentum and push us into things we could never imagine. Let Him do that. Let Him in...The older and more "mature" I get, the harder it is to be His little girl who lets Him comfort and be near. That is my deepest sorrow. Let us be ourselves and Let God of the Universe be Our God.
Look back on the bad and the good, the dreams, the promises, and review. Record your now, becaue it is setting you up for your wildest dreams. OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
